Transfers tomorrow

I'm alive!

so things are going well I'm still alive haha sorry for emailing so late last week that is very rare that we wensday pday but yea. so we have three baptisms schedule the third is on 10th as well so two in one yea. also my companion is being tranferd and I'm staying in laie zone kahuku so things are crazy taking over the area and planing three baptisms by my self cause my companion doesn't  know the area haha. everything has been great kahuku is all about there high school foot ball team so they are hard core fans I mean hard core the whole neighborhood shuts down for a game so my companion and I have no other choose but to go and find people there it is actually affective because they can't run or hide and the whole neighborhood is there so we can find any one to sit by and talk to haha it's great. so a couple of nights ago I had a very awesome experience eating at a members house. we started taking to this girl acrose the table she was being kinda quite so we started asking her questions and she shared with us that she felt like she doesn't believe that god is real and it was a emotional discussion and it was hard cause some of the questions she ask I have ask those questions too but it was amazing because the words that I have said to her i know they were not from me because I couldn't even answered them my self but I saw a change in the girl's face as I spoke and gave her the comfort that she can receive an answer if she does her part. I love the gospel and the spirit I know that I don't know every thing but I know that the gospel is true that if you live it you will have the most happiness than any thing in this life could give you I have witness the effects it has had on others. love you have a good week ALOHA!! 

Aloha!

Yes I totally agree I will do my best to send more general letters but really I just want to write people that will write me. life in the mission is moving so fast by the time it's pday I don't remember my week but I will do my best. how is every thing going for you how is work and the fam doing what has been going on back home. I hope every thing is going well. thing on the mission have been a little hard lately and it's stuff I would rather not share and thoughs things are most of my week so a lot of it is negative stuff so I don't know what else to email beside the week was busy and I'm full of food I'm trying to come up with some thing to write but it is hard ever sense the mtc I have dropped spiritually and have been trying to gain the faith to keep moving on there has been so many times were Ive been so over whelmed with doubt I think I should just come home I guess you can say that satan is working on me. I have been dealing with all kind of temptations and also have had consistent unclean thoughts I don't know what I should do because sense I lack the faith I don't know that god is really there I feel like I have no foundation against evil, and it is really frustrating and discouraging to resist temptation with no back bone but blind faith. I know that the commandments bring true happieness but all that goes out of the window when you don't know that you have a purpose in your life that god is real and really love you and most importantly that the christ is the savior of the world and the atonement is really a thing and can change me. I am trying my best but I'm falling short. The savior said If you love me keep my commandments well it is hard to love something if you don't have asuriety that the thing you love is even real. IT is also hard to preach and testify about some thing that you don't know it's true, I do believe in the church and god is there but I have my doubts. I want to over come this but I don't know how and I also don't know how I'm going to receive my answer but I have been reading the book of mormon and have felt a difference I just haven't received my answer. I wanted to mark this urgent but I don't know what is considered urgent so I didn't but really this is a problem. I want to thank you for your great conceil and I don't mean to be difficult I am just trying to find the truth and fighting against some thing with no weapons or shields, and it is hard but I know all I can do is my best even though my best is not that much it's all I got. so that is what is going on so I'm sorry that I haven't been able to give you guys a good letter lately I"m trying to stay out here but it is difficult and I really don't feel like good is there and that he loves me so how I suppose to help others feel that. I'm sorry I don't mean to complain I just letting you know that I'm going through a hard time. I love you dad and don't ever want to let you down thats why I still here but I don't know if I have any more strength. I hope every thing is going well back home keep moving forward. aloha